step out of the square?
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 @ 12:53 AM
"you see this square?
u need to step out of it"
a comment from yong han b4 he trip over a wire..
is that a sign if i do step out of e box i'm gonna fall?
well apart from his unfortunate bad example.
he has a point.
my box has been getting very big lately..
too big for me to climb out..
i look myself in e mirror..
n cant find myself 3-4 years ago..
the person who would make e effort to try..
the person who always starts e conversation..
the person who starts the chase...
the person who kept chasing till he gets it..
to what i am now..
fragile..
n timid..
hiding in e corner of my box..
those were e days..
i would pick up my phone n just drop a 'yo!! wad cha doin?' msg..
or when a msn alert appears and anxiously click it asap
n drop a 'yo!! wad cha doin?'
now..
i cant even talk properly..
i get all scared..
i dun dare pick up my phone..
and if i do..
i scroll over to e name...
stare at it...
n drop e phone back into my pouch..
stares at e comp screen waiting for her to come online..
when she does..
i'll stare at her msn nick..
n go back into playing wow..
for e 1st time...
mr koh yong han is actually right!
i do need to step out of this square..
but there are so much uncertanties outside of it..
so much doubts..
n fears..
its like staying in a dark box for so long..
n when u open e lid..
e flash of light blinds u...
n u rush to close e box once again..
i need bloody sun glasses for goodness sake.
damn it girl...
are u playing me?
i actually thought u would have waited for me as u did for him.
i guess i have yet placed my hopes to high..
i was so glad at e start of class..
u're e reason i come to sch everyday.
i so hate being in e same project group as him..
let the chase officially begin..
i dun wanna lose her..
not her...
not again..