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sick...
Tuesday, February 24, 2009 @ 12:23 AM

heyo..
i'm bored so just came in to slack abit..
got a bad flu..
1st time i had like a 7x multiple sneeze..
bah..
was heading home from school looking
like rudolf the red nose reindeer.
dammit....
SLEEP TIME!

pretty cool eh :D
Twilight Vanquisher Serim..
i ain't no bullshitting.
thats e real shit right there.
check me up in e wow armory!
a lil' screw up for my dk..
my HP is like 29k
and my armor should be around 30k
they didn't add frost presence into it.
oh well.
YES THATS TANK SPEC
u aint see no shit yet.
wait till i'm in my dps gears.
:PPPPP


push on...
push on......
Twilight Vanquisher Serim
Sunday, February 22, 2009 @ 11:19 PM

heyo peeps.
ok a little brief..
went hospital visit grandfather..
suann came...
crapped with her..
left for home..
ok back to wow :)

Twilight Vanquisher Serim.
yep yep
from us getting owned in OS10 2 drakes up..
we went for the OS25 3drakes up!
after like 4 attempts we got it done..
yes..i got e same crappy job of pulling all adds..
but since its a 25man.
i have a partner :)
its a 1st for me to see 4 tanks of all different classes.
Druid MT
Warrior drake tank
Pally and DK add tank.
pretty cool :)
anyways OS25 3 drakes up is e biggest achviement
for wotlk at e moment.
UNTIL e up coming ulduar is apporaching.
finished 10 man Eye of eternity as well.
n i got myself yet another title
Serim,Champion of the Frozen Waste.
Twilight Vanquisher is cooler..
i'm sticking to that
cus u dun see everyone walking around with that :P
tmr is PIPC2 paper..
hohohoho
GGfied.
i'm mentally prepared for it alr.
gonna bring my pencils n start sketching!

oh oh oh..my previous post.
i cant get e feeling that i kindaposted e way i posted wrongly.

"heya ppl..
to star of my post
I DID NO SKIP DRUM.
i had a reason.. n i aint bullshitting"

it just came out that way.
n i dun wanna edit e post :P
not that i'm blaming u or anything.
SORRY MARC IF U HAD E WRONG IDEA!
SORRRRRRYYYYYYYY


its always best to get to talk to suann..
girls always know wad to say..
for this situation anyway..
so what now?
cont. waiting?
i want to be a graphic designer.
@ 3:58 AM

heya ppl..
to start of my post
I DID NOT SKIP DRUM.
i had a reason..
n i aint bullshitting.

met up with melvin 2day.
my couz.
whom i looked up to since young.
he was e cool dude among all e couz in my mom's side.
gave me loads of his figurines..
and now a successful interactive media designer.
he has a dream job.
he is doing something he loves as a living.
thats anyones dream job.
anyways.
he was a ex nafa student.
n i met up with him to get some insights.
n personal suggestions from him..
i wasn't really close to him..
i wasn't close to any of my couz on my mom's side.
but yea..
he's really cool n friendly :)
he explain his life in nafa n those stuff.
n e test he took to get in.
he says nafa only looks for 2 things in e exam.
if u can draw..u're in
if u're creative..u're in.
e admission is 31th march.
n i'll be going for it..
gonna be sketching n drawing more often nw..
gonna try get more designs out of my head..
gotta find ALL my past drawings n designs i've drawn.
and i'm gonna pwn the admission test!
pwn pwn!
like i pwn allies and raid bosses.


ok back to wow :P
EF 10man os run 2 drakes up
FAIL.
due to multiple failures.
we did a 1 drake up instead.
its was freaking tough.
for me actually.
heres e raid layout
3 tanks
2 death knights(MT,add tank)
1 warrior(drake tank)
2 healers
1 paladin(MT healer)
1 druid(raid healer)
5 dps
1 paladin
1 hunter
1 rogue
1 warlock
1 warrior
a pretty well formed raid.
BUT i hated my role
Death Knight Add Tank
bloody bull shit.
toughest job of em all.
pull all fire elementals
pull all drake whelps
pull all ele from fire walls..
avoid all fire walls.
avoid all void zones.
tmd.
nvm.
serim did a good job n pwned everything,
stupid MT keep die.
noob shit.



fading away
but all it takes
is to see ur face again.
selfish? selfless?
Saturday, February 21, 2009 @ 2:04 AM

hey peeps.
OC2 paper..
chui..
out of 100
i give myself at most 20 marks.
dun wanna talk bout it.
booo.

well ya..duhx i played wow.
i need a girlfriend to get my mind of it :)
unless she plays wow too..
thats a whole diff story.
that would be HOT!
LOL.
Serim cleared Naxx10 at 9.30pm
with 3 drops
and 2nd in dps ranking :)
i left a guild..
with friends..
really good friends..
so that i can raid more..
wth.
yea thats fcuked up.
i feel that way till now.
but.
lets talk bout e bigger picture.
not in-game.
just so that i can achieve something better..
something greater
i leave behind those who helped me get to where i am.
if i did this in-game.
that makes it no different from who i am does it?
so what i'm thinking now is...
i dun want this shit to happen.
n i dun wan ppl leaving me..
or this group.
for wadeva reasons.
like how xoras left due to conflicts.
that sucks..
that fucking sucks.
i so hate it if that happens.
take a chill pill..
hit a drum..
punch some random guy in e face..
punch e wall till ur fist swells.
or even bleed.
scream ur heart out.
or drown urself in a mmorpg
n forget bout all e troubles around u.
now i know y i'm addicted to world of warcraft.
alot of screwed stuff happening to me...
i soooo very much prefer that world than in real life.
bahx..
if only i had spells and the ability to summons ghouls
and OBLITERATE BOOM!
11k dmg u're dead.
ok anyways..
i dun wanna leave..
i dun wan anyone to leave..
its a naive wish.
but i'm sticking to it.


i'm loosing my grip.
cus its a 1 way conversation.
still childish and cant get his life straight,
Thursday, February 19, 2009 @ 2:06 AM



heyo.
serim has joined
'Epic Fail'
a raiding guild.
was a headache to leave elysium.
but ya..
it happened anyway.
BUT
on my 1st day on the guild.
look wad i got.

yes

i got it..
Armageddon.

(i have no idea y whenever i add a pic..

there will always be a spacing for everything afterwards)

friday is the exams.

tmr is e continuation of naxx25.

tmr might have a eoe run.

tmr i said i wanna study oc.

fuck.......

travis cant get his life right.



yes thats serivaras with e big ass swords.



i'm still waiting~


Pestilence
Wednesday, February 18, 2009 @ 12:22 AM

Pestilence
a disease that spreads really quickly
and kills alot of ppl.
a death knight skill.
LOL
bah
my brain cells are victims to pestilence..
their all dying!~

hmmm my DAE appeal to TP has failed.
i just wanna drop e idea of both polys
and try my hardest for nafa.
i think its better to improve my skills there.
since its a focused sector
unlike poly that sometimes throws funny
crap at ya.
NAFA!!
i only hope i can get it.
its my last shot to a new life.

oh..
i forgot to blog about sunday which was a really interesting day
went to meet some members of 'the elysium'
yes my guildies in world of warcraft.
met
penitent
mandrill
zyniths
dural
sowhat
dantalion
n evalast(yin le)
1st time i went to meet a online friend.
rofl.
it was really cool
its as though i've knew them for a really long time.
well..in game ya
about half a year i've been playing with them.
but like to meet em in RL.
was pretty cool.
was excited to see how n who looked like what.
pen and dural uncle luh :P
cant tell they would actually be playing wow
n sowhat..
rofl.
auntie :P
wife of dural.
anyways ya..
i bet u guys dun care. hahaha
watched pink panther 2 after that.
with mandril,dant,n zyn
really funny show.
was abit boring at e start
crappy bullshit show.
haha

exams are coming.
i'm screwed.
i keep telling myself i'm gonna study.
atleast 1 chapter for each subject.
look wad i'm doing.
bah..
failure in life..
zzz

serivaras is power lvling n is currently lvl 73.


i'll wait...
i know what must be done.
and what i must hold back.
happy valentines day.
Saturday, February 14, 2009 @ 11:58 PM

happy valentines day :)
well..
spent my v.day in training..
for some reason..
was uber shagged 2day.
i guess cus i didn't get much sleep e night b4.
had alot of....
thoughts going thru my mind..
cant explain hw tired i am now..
bah..

well..
typical training i guess?
nth much to say bout it cept i tried to get as much
shut eye i could.
n blah blah
political stuff which i dun wanna share on my blog.
might tick me off even more.
headed to e movies after drum
valkyrie we went.
missed e 1st 10mins cus we were stuffing food
down our throats.
went in to find ppl in e wrong seats..
row G is e uber coolest.
everyone in that row was late.
us..den another couple...followed by another.
well..
valkyrie..
rather boring.
it aint a action movie as it seems.
rather politcal n interesting show..
i slept thru e 1st 15mins due to fatigue n boredom haha
e 2nd half of e show started to get interesting
n so ya.
hitler din die to a bomb..
blah blah blah...
he blew his own brains out.
headed home.
n i am gonna knock out anytime soon.


i guess i ain't that guy.
i can tell..
i ain't tat special someone.
as usual i got my hopes high..
its not tat i blame u..
i tend to jump into conclusions too damn fast.
but as i did wait for 3 years b4..
who knows..
i might do it again.
Serim the Love Fool.
@ 12:44 AM

heya.
well..no school 2day..
yay.
woke up ard...11?
den marc dropped me a msg he ended sch early
n headed to my place to slack
he witness e carnage and destruction
serim unleashed in wintergrasp 2day.
wakakaka.
well..after e fight.
headed to cchy.
he went to ncc.
i went to scouts.
its nice to see e scouts again after a year or so.
alot has changed.
but i dun think much for e better.
alot of work needed..
i mean ALOT of work needs to be done with them
i ain't sure if i can commit back to them again.
but as a senior..
its like...u know?
there will always be a scout within me..
once a scout always a scout.
bah..
i gotta think this over..
anyways..
they had cooking 2day.
nice to see e juniors actually TRYING to cook this time.
den just sit back watch e seniors cook
n eat wads left afterwards.
but bloody hell..
burnt my hand with a match stick.
chao ta la..
nw theres a huge blister in my right index finger.
wont be playing drums anytime soon.
didnt go jamming 2day.
heh.

yes finally a 25man raid naxx..
got 3 epics out of 6 bosses.
uber satisfied.
held top 5 dps n top overall dmg.
power of serim!
completed the valentines day event as well..
Serim the Love Fool.
i guess same goes to
Travis the Love Fool.
heh.


i guess...
i guess its screwed up that i always use my msn pm.
or nick.
or my blog to always try to get e msg across..
it actually sucks to beat around e bush.
cus u aint sure whos e person e msg is refering to
so heck it.
i'm gonna do sth abit more obvious here.
'i like to think i'm yours but i'm not'
is that to me?
do tell me pls.
i dun wanna live in self denial.
like how i have all my life.
cus this phase
'i like to think i'm yours but i'm not'
goes back to u from my side.
it sure does.
screw emo-ness
Friday, February 13, 2009 @ 3:07 AM

heya...
'me laughing is the cover up of the sadness within my heart'
argh screw this emo bullshit.
ya..it feels that way..
but its a cry for attention...
shitheads.
sry for my crude language..
but this is e most relaxing way to express myself :)

well..
ya..i'm sick...
caught e flu...
cant sleep recently..
i wonder why...
stayed home..
and duhx..
wow-ed
whole day.
exams are coming..
i duno wad to do..
no not study.
i've given up on that for chem eng.
i'm rather looking forward to nafa..
i wanna get in..
been drawing lately..
hoping to build up my portfolio.
lets do this shit!

considering to buy the psp3000.
cus my psp is kinda...screwed up?
e system is all crapped up..
auto shut downs n restarts etc..
still considering though...
we'll see..

i'm still waiting...
i dun care wad other ppl say.
lets see how much steam is in me.
wake up.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 @ 11:47 PM

the rejection n depression got e best of me last night.
this must not affect my life.
i gotta keep moving.

'u gotta be a fighter and fight for wad u want'
'go for it la'
'u gotta step out of ur box!'
'she won't open up to u if u don't open up to her'
'use ur charm like how u always make me laugh.'
'be yourself.'
'its whether u want to or not...'
'u gotta change ur attitude towards life'
'if u fail,get back up and go again dun just lay there.'
words from impt ppl around me.
guiding me.
helping me.
and its down right clear wads my weakness.
1. when i fall. i dare not climb back up
2. i'm antisocial and need to open up abit more.
these are e factors that are killing me right now.
yes.
i rushed too fast
and expected too much.
i was asking for it to approached her this way.
i was too concerend bout valentines day
and e last week of sch.
i thought.
this was now or never.
if i get rejected..
i dun gotta face her anymore.
but i got rejected.
but e thing is..
i dun wanna let go just cus i got rejected for v.day.
i wanted to put it under e bridge..
if i get rejected.
den forget it..
but i cant.
i just cant..
i aint stopping here..
i'm gonna fight for wad i want.
unless she has a boyfriend already,
i won't go on.
i ain't those fuckers who snatches.
but until i get that information confirmed..
i'm going on.
but a break for now..
exams are coming.
i dun wanna interfier with her.

this is so not a crush.
i know wad i did wrong.
i'm gonna get that fixed.
u're gonna see travis the crazy bastard..
not travis the dao guy in the corner..
u'll see :)
just a failure.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009 @ 11:48 PM

why?
wtf is it like this..
1000 of stuff running in my mind nw..
i dun get it..
did i rush to fast?
did i fuck something up?
did i give e wrong 1st impression?
is it that u're e classmate of my ex?
is it that i ain't ur type?
is it that i seem like a player?
is it that i'm corny?
cus i'm ugly?
cus i'm different?
cus of past experiance?
cus of bad memories?
cus u don't know me enough?
cus u know me only for a short period of time?
cus u have a boyfriend?
cus u have someone else in mind?
cus u already have a date?
cus u dun wanna have a date?
cus u rather be with ur friends den with me?
cus i aint significant?
cus u felt e chemistry i created was an act?
cus u felt tat i wasnt serious?
cus its fear?
cus u're shy?
cus u dun like guys?
cus u dun like anything bout me?
what is it? tell me?
ya..
i always sound cool n calm.
i always seem to be thinking..
i always seem to have alot of stuff in my mind.
seem this seem that..
wad u dun see is a fucked up guy inside of me
crying for attention.
i shiver when i'm near u..
i go blank when i see u..
i almost got a heart attack when i asked u out.
i felt e skin of my chest pounding..
real hard.
real fast.
i felt my hands go numb..my joints. my legs.
and for the record.
its e 1st time i'm asking someone out face to face.
none before.
i took advices from so many friends.
i took their words of encouragement.
i took their support
i took it..
and embraced it.
i didn't regret any of it.
i just feel so screwed now..
my leap of faith landed with my dead body heart pierced thru a pinnicle
of a frozen glacia.
i don't know wad to do now.
u were the 1 who was pushing me to move forward in life.
and now.
i'm back in a stand still.
i told myself.
my drum score i was composing.
i had u in my heart each time i played the drum.
each time i recorded something.
each time i hummed sth..
i told myself.
i wanted u to be there when its done.
its 1st show.
now i'm fucking stuck.
stuck on everything.
sure ppl might say to move on.
find someone else.
focus on wads more impt.
well u can drag my fucking my dead body for all i care.
travis is dead dude..
hes fucking dead.

i don't know anything anymore
this post might be deleted soon
i just need to get this off my of wads left of my fucked up heart
screw this.
its over...seriously
@ 11:27 PM

its done..
i did it..
i thought i couldn't.
but i did it.
but life ain't exactly fair..
so cheers to that.
nth else to be said.
goodnight.
down,depressed,demoralized.
@ 1:24 AM

hey people.
dosen't it suck..
if u send a msg..
n u anticipate the reply..
but nothing comes in even after 3 hours..
n u ask..
why didn't u reply me?
and a
'oh i forgot..'
comes back in..
that hurts...
like big time..
i have no idea how to carry this forward.
its just coffee...
is that too much to ask for?

well tmr is tuesday..
my understanding theatre play is tmr..
haven't remembered all my lines..
so screwed..
oh..
he had to change e story line again..
getting on my nerves.
hes more alike his character then in real life.
ignorant.
spoilt.
n he wants wad he wants.
dammit..
unflexible shit.
can't think out of a bloody cardboard gift box.

yay to new gears..
t7.5 shoulders :)
n yay to my killing spree in pvp..
they don't stand a chance againts serim.
e power death knight!

i wanna complete my score..(**%)
i wanna complete a new costume design..(50%)
i wanna make a tshirt design..(25%)
com'on..
creative juices get to work!
i wanna get into a design school
so that i can cultivate my passion!
booo...


tmr is the day.
its everything or nothing tmr.
i'm putting everything on the line.
wish me luck.
emo? emotional? its all e same.
Monday, February 9, 2009 @ 1:39 AM

weai.~
i was told nt to post about 'them' so i'm gonna keep it low.
but i just wanna say.
(despite being slow)
its cool to see my own competition.
at its best.
atleast i think its their best..
but i'm sure they have something else hidden up their sleeves.
its because i was sitting next to e speakers?
cus i felt it hard to breath with the energy level going up during certain parts.
which was a good thing.
i enjoyed it.
sure arts about the visuals,the execution all those stuff.
but for me as a individual.
what i look for in a good show.
is something that can give me goosebumps in a good way.
these goosebumps will lead to e butterflies in e tummy.
n even being pressed down.
thats how i find or feel if its a good show.
ME.
i'm sure nt all of u agree..
bah..
i dun give a shit :P
anyways..
good show.
but we'll do better!
i know we can.

Serim has registered to raiding guild:
'Epic Fail'
pwn pwn!

this night..
i wasn't breathing well not just cus of a good show..
u're taking over everything..
u said to me...
'u look so serious in class..as if u have alot of stuff in ur mind.'
well i do..
its u...
really nice to have to be able to chat with u..
made my day seriously..
i don't want it to be the last.


u're totally something else.
a photo is worth more than a thounsand words
Sunday, February 8, 2009 @ 12:18 AM

down in e dumps...
all the way down to the core of all e crap that lies in it.
was getting really phyced up for e day to come..
and suddenly...
just cus of a photo..
its scaring the shit out of me.

If you're feeling down in the dumps, be active with people and you'll feel better.
quoted from e horoscope of the day for librians.
well..
thanks tony n marc :)

too emo to carry on.....
i feel too shitty....
will cont this post tmr...
Adrenalin
Saturday, February 7, 2009 @ 2:11 AM

well...
abit pissed of wow now..
there aint no gear progression..
gonna jump ship to the guild
'death cold embrace'
the elysium aint getting me anywhere.
screw this..
might be going to train on my pvp skills instead.

ok well...
missed a 25man naxx raid for drum jamming sessions.
i was having 2nd thoughts.
but thank god i went.
had a dream last night of a rythem.
forced myself up n recorded it down
with my brainless n tired voice.
used it 2day..
n came out great..
thanks tony n marc for helping me tune it up.
lkk n xjw too.
i'm getting drum progression more then gear
progression
ssheesh.

feel da adrenalin!


i miss her.
i wanna talk to her..
its a 2 way trip.
Friday, February 6, 2009 @ 1:58 AM

heyo....
well....yes..i still hate sch...
can't wait to get the chance to get out of it.
i pray that i get my appeals....
or worst come to worst...
i intend to head into nafa..
wish me luck.

oh...
watched '4 brothers'
pirated dvd format..
it was a last year movie..
pardon my outdated-ness
wanted to catch e movie last year...just didn't have e chance to..
really cool movie actually..
liked it alot.
if u're like me.
who have not got to catch e movie last year or
thru internet downloads..
holla to get e dvd from me haha...
cool show.

I WAN RAIDS RAIDS RAIDS!!
I WAN NEW GUILD!!
DAMMIT..
I WAN GEAR MY BLOODY DEATH KNIGHT!
serim will pwn u all..
3.8k dps on 5man instance...
eat that!

'if u don't open up to her, she won't open up to u'
'just ask! won't die 1'
'reject den only she n u noe...den we noe....nt say we broadcast it'
'ASK!!!'
'delete the fat guy'
some wise words from tony n marc.
rofl.
well...
but the 1st phase catches most of my attention.
like a big slap that woke me up
thats something i've been over looking for everything..
i'm so dao..cus i'm afraid to talk to people..
i expect n wait for em to talk to me..b4 i talk to em.
not counting her..
like a new class..
new envirnment..
i expect people to come over...
its not that i'm arrogant...
not wanting to talk to ppl..
its just that...
i'm just....auto dao mode.
its kinda who i am..
so...
'if u don't open up to her, she won't open up to u'
i need an exception this time dammit..
i can't wait for this..
BUT..
all this talk...
all this confidence..
once i see her...
my brain shuts down..
n my nerves takes over..
its like going stupid mode..
n i get all quiet.
i need someone by me to slap me when that happens =/
shit....


valentine's day is coming..
its now or never.

i miss her.
its just a crush?
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @ 11:51 PM

heyo...
crap....
whenever i get loads of cash...
i always think of hw to spend it all away -.-
lets see...
-a new laptop.(mine cmiii)
-a bike.
-iPod speakers with a alarm clock
-new accessories.
-a percussion instrument(i wan indian drums!)
well ya...
i need money management tips..
but my top prio now should be a laptop
or the indian drums...
or e speaker...
dammit.

well..
as everyday goes by..
my interest for my damn course goes weaker...
i go to sch just for e attendence n to hang with my classmates..
trying nt to disturb em too much though..
except e kkb han chiew.
i look forward to nth any more..
life is a irritating fact..
zzz
y cant i be hard working?
screw my working attitude..

jamming sessions pls..
looking forward to those only.
could be more fun though...
everyone gotta be in e groove n beat!


u attracted me..
did i attract u?
i don't know u...
i just feel for u..
is it a crush?
a imature teenage crush?
no wonder i hate chemistry.
i midjudged the chemistry..
a failed test?
i really hope not..
i ain't trying hard enough..

screw this insecure dao-self
that auto triggers whenever i see u...
how i wish i can just crap around with u..
how i wish u could see the real me..
it hurts to see u walk away with him.