good news bad news..
Tuesday, March 31, 2009 @ 2:13 AM
sups.
good n bad news.
lets start with...
the sidelines.
2day was e Life! Theatre Awards.
and Zingo got nominated for Best Sound Design.
i didnt manage to go..
will get to that l8r..
anyways.
we didn't win unfortunatly.
BUT
getting nominated is good enough
cheers to that.
n to a brighter future for Zingo.
BAD NEWS
ok..
didnt go for e awards cus i went to my
TP,interactive Media Design transfer interview.
well..as u know i'm dropping chem eng.
n i'm heading into e arts n media sector.
so..i applied fer IMD in TP.
well
i screwed it..
my nerves n my 'auto defense' hit in once again.
n left out of words..
things don't look good.
n its real screwed up.
i should have voiced out more..
instead i got myself overwhelmed..
oh well.
i did try.
GOOD NEWS
i got accepted into nafa~~~
bloody fools.
the results were out but i didnt know..
had to call em up..
the letter is coming soon.
n with this..
i duno if i should be phyced or wad.
wadeva e case.
i've gotten myself out of chem eng.
cheers to that.
n cheers to a july admission~~~
dammit....vhexus found my blog..
VHEX!
IF U'RE READING TAG ME!
I'LL HUNT U DOWN WAHAHAHAHA
ok..
my priest is gonna go pwnage dmg soon.
got a few new gears up.
gotta test em soon!
pwnpwnpwn
one year has passed.
n a new start once again.
a new chapter to this miserable book.
a new chance to make it right.
rock till ur hearts drop.
Friday, March 27, 2009 @ 4:15 AM
heya.
looky looky...
its 4.19 again! wooo
awsome~~~
anyways...
here to kill time b4 i head back into bed n TRY sleep.
went meet up with kailiang adrian n jinhwee..
was nice to see em after like..
1mth?
anyways hc ps us.
prick.
anyways..
we went to play l4d..
rofl.
ok la..
nt bad quite fun
didnt clear last stage cus i had to go training
n jh had prac to attend to..
so yea..
see when i might see em again..
oh ya..
at kailiang's place..
he showed me to a couple of cool stuff on youtube..
about
'punk goes pop'
pretty cool stuff..
hard rockers converting pop songs
giving em e head banging touch.
which i so very much enjoy over e original pop versions.
well gonna post some of em here..
enjoy~
OK
error here somehow.
i duno if its my com?
or wadeva shyt
but i cant drop e vid here...
so i'm just gonna drop the damn link.
Alesana - "What Goes Around
A Static Lullaby - "Toxic"
these 2 are e coolest imo.
pretty awsome pimping.
sry bout my blogger..
i duno wtf is wrong with it~
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
a new path?
Thursday, March 26, 2009 @ 12:28 AM
heya.
its 12.30! omg..
its early...
anyways...
just here to kill some time b4 i head to bed.
nafa nafa nafa..
hmmm..
a new twist might be coming up in my life..
it aint confirmed yet..
but if it does...
it'll be a cool surprise for some..
i'm keeping at that..
i aint saying nafa rejected me or anything..
but we'll see~
it aint confirmed yet..
but if it does...
it'll be a cool surprise for some..
i'm keeping at that..
i aint saying nafa rejected me or anything..
but we'll see~
got this done 2day..
well...
yet again call me noob..
but it took me a hour to get it perfect..
n i like it~~
Serivanars has broken the 1.6k dps limit..serim has broken the 4k dps limit...
EAT THAT!
gratz eva to his damn gun..
ALL thanks to me..
tsk.
the artist's model.
who am i?
Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @ 4:14 AM
heya..
well guess e time...
its 4.15am atm again..
from a 12am lights out...
to a 2am...
to a 3...
n now its crossing 4..
pretty soon it'll be 6 or 7..
n soon no sleep at all...
something is stirring me up.
wads going on..
well...went prawning with tony n rh..
call me noob but it was my 1st time.
n it was great.
1st time for a form of fishing as well...
pretty cool..
sth different for once.
caught 10 prawns in 3 hours..
i don't know if its good or bad?
but i'm proud of em 10.
esp the biggest 1 i caught wahaha.
was a heartbreaker to skewer e prawns alive -.-
though its just prawns...
i still dun feel good about it..
even though they were excellent to eat.
uber tender.
but still..
i don't like it =/
some people are doctors.
some are lawyers.
some are teachers..
artists.
cleaners.
chefs.
writers..
actors..
performers..
scientists..
parents..
so then...
who am i?
and the fat lady sang.
slap of reality.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009 @ 12:55 AM
heya.
well..its 1...
i'm really tired...
but dun feel like heading to bed..
its like being stuck to e chair n stare at the com
againts my will..
n apprarently..
i have very low will power.
so wad e heck..
i need to get more stuff off my mind b4 i can sleep.
serivanars pwned e dps charts yet again...
yes..
hit 75..
n finally...Spriest uber aoe dps skill..
mind sear is learnt..
yet to test the new skill n rotation.
but i'm sure i'll still be pwning..
ok enuff of this.
keep going..
keep going..
go for it..
keep trying..
won't hurt..
well i did..
n i've done so much that..
i'm using it as a shield to protect myself from failing again.
i keep thinking that its possible.
its like watching those cocked anime shows
where e hero keeps 'believing'
and everything just magically happens
this aint anime.
this aint a game.
this is real...
the pain is real..
the emotions are real..
but..
there wern't to be.
it was all a illusion..
that i crafted out of myself..
to hide in my shell again..
a auto defense machanism in my brain.
nothing was ever real in e 1st place.
n its my fault to put myself thru this shit.
logically..
its harder to hold on to something.
but in reality..
its harder to let go.
esp againts ur will..
this time.
i'm sure...
very sure...
this is it.
i need a new source to express this.
Blow the candles out..
looks like a solo tonight..
i'm begining to see the light...
the average guy.
Monday, March 23, 2009 @ 5:01 AM
heya peeps.
well i cant sleep
n its.....5.01 am atm.
well...
i was sick on sat..
n have been sleeping alot..
n now i cant sleep...
zzz
anyways lets just get this going.
woke at 3...woopee..
headed down to marina bay and then marina barrage.
pretty awesome place.
nice view..
the weather was pleasent..
yea took alot of pics..
might put em up on FB soon.
too lazy to do so now.
well..
met tony,sx,djw and tw there.
inspected the place..
well yea.
aint gonna elaborate more into that.
pretty cool place..
nice place to bring a girlfriend to haha.
NEXT!
serivanars pwned a better geared spriest at e same lvl (74)
and a lvl 75 shammy with a 1.5k dps rating.
EAT THAT!
ok enuff.
well..
i was looking thru my old report cards of cchy.
pretty heart warming comments n etc.
n i've seen...
i've never improved...
since primary sch.
i was n still the average boy.
the average guy..
i've never scored at anything.
everything i see majority anyways were
3s and 4s
and on a trend for a period of time
5s.
n my O lvls..
everything 3.
wad were the odds?
PSLE.
all Bs as well..
i'm like the official
B-BOY
aint sth i'm very proud of myself.
anyways.
just wanna share some comments from my r.card.
lets start from sth tat will boost my ego a lil' :P
will be cut shorting a few..
might be too long :P
"He has many friends in the school due to his caring
and friendly nature. He is also artistically inclined. it is a joy to have
a student like him"-Mr Surjono
LOL
i miss mr surjono :(
i think more ppl are pissed at me then the friends i have lol.
well w/e.
"However, he needs to work on his tempermental streak"
-Mdm Goh
bah..
i admit it.
sorry mdm goh for all that shit.
i feel i've solved that by alot.
but not entirely.
do tell me if i'm wrong.
if i scold u back means the ans to that is NO! lol.
lets get sth corny n typical.
"Zm has a potential to obtain better results, He should strive harder next semester."
there u go.
a comment EVERYONE has to have in their report card.
or sth similar.
oh ya
-Ms lee eu nee
well..
she only taught me for 1 sem b4 she left to give birth.
oh well..
memories memories..
so much for being a average student in poly
by getting all Fs.
well...
i guess i evened out with 1 A? lol.
i don't know where this life is leading me.
i'm just a ordinary guy.
with ordinary outputs.
with ordinary intelligence.
with ordinary talents.
not the lousiest.
not the best.
the stand still.
if i were a mountain.
it would be a plateau
a short 1 like most ppl would say.
so..
to ppl around me.
don't expect too much of me.
u'll get ordinary results.
"He is a strong believer of his own capabilities."
"He is a strong believer of his own capabilities."
fucking bullshit.
blow the candles out.
looks like a solo tonight.
something different.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @ 9:50 PM
heya ppl...
yet again..
lectures from my mom...
n she always brings up this point...
lectures from my mom...
n she always brings up this point...
that makes sense...
but i'm thinking of it a different angle..
"if u really want it..go for it. nothing will stop u.
if u really want it"
well..
she means studies n my design course..
she means studies n my design course..
n i'm thnking of her..
bah...
i guess shes right..
no matter hw many times i fall..
i tend to just...stay down..
sometimes...i get up cus there is some motivation..
but..
this time...
damn...
i'm seriously pushing myself to e limit..
well..
my last post said i'mma givin up..
my last post said i'mma givin up..
screw that..
i aint falling down so soon..
ohohoh..
Zingo got nominated in the
Straits Time Life Theatre Awards
for Best Sound Design...
wooo
pretty cool stuff..
its like a huge rep boost..
n bigger motivation boost.
next stop..
WINNER!
WINNER!
well..
pretty bored these days...
i dun wanna post much bout wow either.
although i did pwned e dps charts with my spriest again...
n uber tanking with my dk wahaha..
ok enuff..
i guess i'mma post sth new..
gonna put some of my drawings up..
i know they aint e best stuff u've seen.
but i do wish to hear some comments..
do pls tag ur comments..
wadeva they are.
n since its e 1st pic..
i'mma use my most impt drawing..
with 100% emotion in it..:P
although its black n white..
(i aint a colour person....yet)
love?
as one
well yea..
the 1st picture is e original.
den i played around n made copies n placed them tgt.
this picture was drawn on the day i met her..
was drawn while i met her.
n progressed as it did while with her.
n i belive is 1 of my finest piece.
will be posting more non-emo pieces soon haha
u are so....killing me.
final decision?
Sunday, March 15, 2009 @ 10:23 PM
heya.~
IT fair~~~
freaking crowded eh?
like e 1st time its so packed.
bad economy n more ppl buying more electronics.
so many ppl carrying tvs n laptops out.
freaking bull crap.
had to like really bulldoze my way thru...
bloody hell..
got myself a radeon graphic card..
yet to install it cus my com has alot of freaking weird wires
e bloody HP guy left for me binded all tgt..
have nooo idea wads for wad...
dare nt remove any either..
gonna get e bloody guy back here..
n make him fix my bloody internet security thing..
so freaked out i cant even use msn..
yet again..
no reply.
i duno if i should get emo..
pissed.
persist..
endure..
or wadeva shit.
i hate 1 way convos..
n this has been going on too many times.
i guess its my own fault to get too deep into it.
n i'll crawl out of this grave i dug for myself.
i'll give it till tmr..
if there still aint anything..
then so be it.
it aint to be.
n it wont.
n can only take so much.
1 more day
and i thought i was tired.
@ 1:31 AM
heyo peeps...
uber tiring day....
overslept for drum dammit..
sorry for making everyone pump 50..
muscle aching all over..
rather torturing doing pushups..
it felt like my muscles were going to tear apart anytime..
but oh well..
gotta force it.
esp that 50 -.-
gotta let my body relax for a few days..
yest n 2days dmg pretty hefty.
might be chilling at e pools in safra on mon.
will see hows e situation on that day..
need some sun rays as well..
i'm freaking white dammit..
LIGHT!! give me strength!
drama drama drama drama..
fun fun..
me is enjoy closing my eyes n relax n stretch..
hmmm...
thats like yoga.
lololol.
who knows...i might actually take it up..
rofl.
but...
nahxxxxxxxx....
looking forward to cooler stuff to learn.
ohohoh...
grade 8 was sweet.
a lil' stiff at e start..
but overall i think we did great..
i felt e aura i wanted..
saw a vid of myself playing...
my face always seems like gt fishball in my mouth =/
wtf sia..
gotta correct that...
n i need a hair cut...
its tooooo whacky...
videos ftw..
its another angle of a audiance view.
I WANNA MAKE MORE CRAPPED UP VIDEOS!!!
might look out for some vid cams tmr at e IT fair..
hope to find some good deals....
who knows..
i might actually get 1.
i...
want...
my..
trishaw....
nth else need to be said.
tired!
Saturday, March 14, 2009 @ 12:15 AM
yosh.
lets start this off with this..
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be. | |
| Being Alone | |
| Losing Someone | |
| Looked down on | |
| Commitment | |
| Where Your life is Going | |
| Death | |
| What is your True Fear? http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
ok..
i copied this thingy ruohan's blog..
cus i'm bored..
e results are mine of cus -.-
hmm..
dissapointment..
thats surprisingly true i guess=/
i hate to fail.
n if i do..
my life gets screwed up.
bah..
w/e!!!
well..
went to gym as intended to.
was ABIT reluctant...
but i did it!
met e kkb yonghan n ate long john..
half an hour late as usual.
bloody noob.
oh shyt..
l8r someone scold me ;x
hohoho..
shawn last min never go
bloody pussy scared of a little rain
LOL!!
anyways..
got there at 1504..i rmb!
got there..
started with weights...
blah blah blah..
do till my arms all went flimsy..
its been awhile since i got a good work out..
rather satisfied.. :)
but yh noob..
so fast tired..
1554 we zao alr..
newb.
i can feel my arms~~~
tmr is prac 8!~~
PWN!
PWN!
i hope ;x
my spriest pwned a lvl 73 full epic spriest.
eat that noob.
ok enuff wow.
i'll wait for u..
somehow...
i'm still freaking waiting.
attitude check.
Friday, March 13, 2009 @ 3:39 AM
ok..
its like 3am again.
n i wanted to sleep at 12..
ended up surfing e net till now.
uber tired.
but isomnia is kicking in again.
that only means depression is kicking agian.
cant sleep nowadays no matter how tired i am..
i just need a nice long nap.
ok thats it..
2day is e last straw.
i know i fucked up again..
i'm pulling myself away from e com..
its getting out of hand...
heading to e gym tmr..
with mr koh yh..
might grab a swim after that.
n hopefully pull some people out for coffee..
i need to get my life balanced again..
fucking world of warcraft screwing my social life.
i want to go out more..
fool around..
watch movies..
go stupid...
mess around with ppl..
disturb strangers in city hall...
scream a friends name in a mrt..
wadeva.
better still...push a friend into a wall..
damn..
i gotta get those back.
else i'm rotting at home.
malaysia trip pls..
no world of warcraft talk.
looky wad happen
my chem eng results
thermodynamics F
Applied math F
PIPC2 F
OC2 F
CSAS D+
Understanding Theatre A
lolololololol
i got a A ppl..
other ppl dig their brains out n dun even get a A
heck it man.
i'm proud of my A.
nothing else.
i miss theatre classes in poly.
for 2 obvious reasons duhx..
i wannna act~~~
oh..
Hey Monday.
the cool upcoming band.
awsome man..
e lead singer..
Cassadee pope..
woooo!
hot as hell..
well..
she does look like someone if u catch my drift..
her voice as well..
whenever i hear their songs..
i think of...her..:)
i duno its a good or bad thing.
but w/e
atleast i have sth that i feel
reminds me of her
n keeps me going on.
or maybe i'm just going crazy.
heh.
i'm falling..
falling apart..
for u..
coffee break.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 @ 3:19 AM
millions of stuff fucking my head up..
i cant even play wow n have fun..
i wont say emo..
its just
flashes of thoughts that haunt me from
e night b4.
dreams.
nightmares.
songs.
images.
keep flashing like some cocked up horror movie.
and its all black n white kinda shitty stuff..
last night..
i had dreams.
nightmares? of flashes of e past
and/or future?
or is it a good thing?
but i refuse to acknowledge it.
but as often as my stm is.
i usually forget my dreams..
but e damn thing haunted it me 3 times last night
all in different scenarios.
n do not wish to elaborate about wad it was.
but i feel its not right.
n i dun wish for it to happen.
its a vow i made to myself not to happen.
for both parties sake..
i will find a new light.
n keep the flame of life burning.
that is n will be
my new year resolution.
n i have yet to break it.
nor will i..
light give me strength!
nth to talk about wow.
gelare tmr
with tony n hopefully rh or marc..~~
i need more outings to get my
'wild animal' free.
roar...
its scary how i feel i'm so close to u.
yet so far away.
yet someone else.
yet u.......
craziness..
kicking in..
what now?
nafa?
Sunday, March 8, 2009 @ 12:37 AM
heya peeps.
2day was my nafa admission test
paper1:draw by observation
paper2:creativity thingy.
well..
paper 1 is more about drawing skills.
our test was suppose to draw 1 object in our possetion
but in 3 different angles
so its about shading n stuff.
well..
1hour was pretty tight
but i managed to get it done.
drawing aint my best skill atm.
gotta get it up.
paper2 was doing a collage with magz
pretty cool
i took e topic of new technology
cus e magz i brought were all about PS3 LOL
had a fun time doing it
rather pleased of wad i created.
Dearth vader shall have world domination
with his ps3
wahahahahahaha!!!
:D
i'd give myself a....6-7/10 for paper 1..
and hopefully a 8-9 for paper 2 :P
well i'm placing everything on e line for this.
WISH ME LUCK!
well...
nth to do in wow cept waiting for ulduar to come out.
dks are getting fucking nerfed.
bloody hell..
it totally sucks to hear ur own class get nerfed like mad.
oh well..
too many ppl complaining bout
serim pwning them everyday.
cant be helped i guess.
i'll still pwn em after e nerf..
its just some might get away faster :P
me is wan train my pally Nocake.
n serivanars!!
ok nuff of wow..
i'm trying to get it out of my system.
DRAMA CLASS!~
its fun
n relaxing.
but this class is more serious imo
but i dun mind haha
although poly drama class was more relaxing.
and more about acting :P
well.
w/e i still enjoy it
n i wanna learn more~~
travis is e next SG brad pitt~~ LOL!
"is she that special to you?"
quote from wsa awhile ago.
wsa=wong su ann
well..
that qn popped into my tiny skull recently
due to my sudden emo-ness
i guess.
all the mistakes i did.
all e regrets that i have
all the stuff that i didnt do.
is coming back at me.
whenever i go crazy
i go lame
i go retarded..
i think..
y e fcuk didnt i do this when i was with her.
she didnt get to see my kuku self.
e self which i think might have some
connection to her.
cus shes that kind to.
who says opposites attract.
i'm gonna be more retarded?
my specs seems to be boosting my dumbness..rofl
but is that a good thing?
fyi i aint dumb..
i'm just partially retarded.
craziness n having fun makes me think of u..
u are that special.
totally.
no not unholy aura..not frost not blood....its a whole different aura i want.
Monday, March 2, 2009 @ 3:28 AM
heya peeps.
its been awhile since i posted.
well ya exams are over
sry for my laggness.
friday was e last day for me with a8d2.
n i aint exactly happy bout it.
but i cannot move on in chem eng.
n thus my decision.
i promise i'll be crashing alot of lectures :P
wish me luck on my appeal to nafa.
outing pics on facebook
go look fer em urselves.
well ya..
still playing lots of wow.
getting my priests up
i'm a herbilist and inscriptor!
hola for a glyph.
to think that u can get out of the real world
by playing a mmorpg
when its just as real as e world itself.
politics etc.
well its crappy
n its affecting alot of innocent ppl.
w/e
gotta fix this up.
[nobodies]
this guild
will rise 1 day.
sooner or later.
well..
i don't ask for much in drumming.
yes.
i go to drums to have fun.
fun with frens
n fun with frens WITH drums.
its e bond between everyone that feel awsome.
its the aura.
no not unholy aura..not frost not blood....its a whole different aura i want.
i want ppl to feel e same spur of energy
when watching a show.
when e music,performer and audience become 1.
in order to achieve that
the performers must get that bond right 1st.
its been awhile since i've felt that spur.
that hype.
e last time was Moon Fest.
cus most of us played our hearts out
cus we have placed too much shit into it
to let it fail.
drumming had been my drug.
WoW is my indoor drug.
and outdoors is drumming.
i cant do anything better cept these 2.
apart from talking cock.
and being retarded.
i want that enegry.
and i will get it.
flipside.
p.s.
if u're a really vain person.
u'll realise when u play drums u tend to get ur actions right.
yes..
i'm vain.
u should be too.
for e sake of drumming LOL
where do i go from here?