2nd thoughts.
Monday, May 4, 2009 @ 3:02 AM
heya.
its 3..
n i'm freaking exhauted
but i had the sudden 'eh..i feel like posting' kinda feeling.
just wanna get some stuff off.
am i underestimating myself?
both physically and mentally?
its always..
'nah...i cant do it'
'it wont happen..'
'no chance...cus its me.'
but then..
even time i try prove myself wrong..
it ends up all fucked up and shit.
like how i push myself to run past my limit
and i vomit at e finish line.
or pushing a few laps in the pool
and end up dizzy and shit.
so i've been wondering.
do i know myself toooo well?
or am i underestimating myself?
this goes same for other stuff in my life.
like 'her'
i did try n stuff..
but it always ended up all awkward n shit.
is that my fault?
for being a boring person?
am i boring?
i don't know
u tell me.
ULDUAR
9/14
WOOOOOOOOOO
we're 3/4 way there!
the more i watch from afar
the more i understand
the more i fear.
the more i fear that its not wad i thought it would be
i need to look past the brighter side.
to see wad hides behind the true shadow.
am i contradicting myslef?