The death of one..comes the birth of another
Thursday, April 17, 2008 @ 8:03 PM
have not posted recently as i have been busy lately...
and e worst of it is..
my grandmother just passed away on 15th of April 2008 at around 5 in the morning..
it was the day i was suppose to go into orientation camp..
well i did go anyway...cus e news was very shocking...
n my mom told me to just go fer e 1st day...
well..i have not shed a tear yet...n i dont noe y..
its not i dont love my grandmother..
i guess...i just duno hw to show my real emotions..
heh..i can feel a slight tear squeezing out as i type this....hooray?
anyway...2day is e 3rd day of e funeral wake..
tmr will be e major prayers...
i can tell....alot of my relatives r gonna cry like mad...
as fer me....i aint too sure...
i always tend to feel very numb during funerals...
is that 'my' way of feeling sad?
i just realised i have never cried in a funeral b4...
despite hw close e person may mean to me..
but i do love em...
i guess i'll have this post as a tribute to my late grandmother..
My grandmother...
she was 87 years old...
she was a very fun person..till 10 years ago my grandfather passed away..
since then...she was always very sad...
kept talking about wanting to 'go' n see my grand-dad.
my relatives tried their best to keep her happy...
kept bringing her out..
bringing her to thailand(her fav country)
they tried their best...
but things gone from bad to worst..
somehow some conflict began within e family..
n somehow...i have no idea y...my grandmother was indirectly un-invited into her own home.
so thus...my mom took her in into my home..
that was about a year ago...
my grandmother would stay in e room e whole day..
not wanting to walk out n do anything....just lay in bed..
good thing bout have 10 cats n a dog is that they make e house noisy n kept her company..haha
unlike me....i too locked myself in my room....but gaming instead..
(damn if i go on anymore i might actually cry in front all my relatives..)
and during febuary...around e 3-4th day CNY?
my grandmother was sent into the hospital..
she usually had regular admissions...
so it was like normal to me...
it felt like...aiya...she'll be back in another 3-4 days...
but she didnt..
she stayed in e hospital for about 2 mths,,,
n in that 2 mths...i only visited her about 5 times...
n after that 2 mths...
13th of April..the was released...n she went back to my uncle's home..
(its actually her home....but ya...wadeva...)
visited her on the 14th of April....she was sleeping on her bed....with some mask on her face..
held her hand...n went out e room...to watch tv...
15th april....6am..
my mom called..
"ah-ma has passed away..."
ok..i cant finish this post anymore...maybe i'll continue it another day...
but not nw....
i love my grandmother